Day 24 of Quarantine
I've started to finally feel it. Some of that quarantine depression. I have been doing pretty well staying positive and keeping myself as busy as I can without leaving the house. I am going on walks, zooming my friends, and going on random drives with no destination.
Trying to plan when there is no certainty is hard. My mandated vacation is also bringing to light my "purpose". As someone two years out of college I am finding difficulty in thinking about my future and where I want to go. For the last year two years or so I have been throwing myself at work and staying busy. I have been in shows and putting them together but now I am forced to sit in my bedroom/house for 24/7 with my thoughts and what I really want. I am not distracted by anything else except my knitting (which for those who were wondering I have officially finished my first leg warmer 😁). Feeling sad about my show closing without it reaching its' full potential has definitely been part of it. Seeing only the people I live with is another part. Knowing that I won't have another face to face dance class this year is another part.
So when you are depressed and stressed what do you do? You call your parents.
I called my mom who gave me a level of calm and level headedness that only my mother can achieve. How someone so busy and overloaded with stress can be so calm and giving is something I can never understand. (It's one of those mom things) Then my dad called me and gave me the advice that even though it is a rough time, I am only 23 and there is so much greatness in my future. Greatness that I cannot even see.
I want to pass on to anyone that got this far in my post to know that we are all capable of great amazing things no matter how old we are, no matter how stuck we feel. Even though the present is bleak the future is full of greatness for every single person, you just can't see it yet.
I've started to finally feel it. Some of that quarantine depression. I have been doing pretty well staying positive and keeping myself as busy as I can without leaving the house. I am going on walks, zooming my friends, and going on random drives with no destination.
Trying to plan when there is no certainty is hard. My mandated vacation is also bringing to light my "purpose". As someone two years out of college I am finding difficulty in thinking about my future and where I want to go. For the last year two years or so I have been throwing myself at work and staying busy. I have been in shows and putting them together but now I am forced to sit in my bedroom/house for 24/7 with my thoughts and what I really want. I am not distracted by anything else except my knitting (which for those who were wondering I have officially finished my first leg warmer 😁). Feeling sad about my show closing without it reaching its' full potential has definitely been part of it. Seeing only the people I live with is another part. Knowing that I won't have another face to face dance class this year is another part.
So when you are depressed and stressed what do you do? You call your parents.
I called my mom who gave me a level of calm and level headedness that only my mother can achieve. How someone so busy and overloaded with stress can be so calm and giving is something I can never understand. (It's one of those mom things) Then my dad called me and gave me the advice that even though it is a rough time, I am only 23 and there is so much greatness in my future. Greatness that I cannot even see.
I want to pass on to anyone that got this far in my post to know that we are all capable of great amazing things no matter how old we are, no matter how stuck we feel. Even though the present is bleak the future is full of greatness for every single person, you just can't see it yet.
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